Stress and other yummy stuff

I know I haven't posted in awhile about McKenzie and I but life have been really busy. This is a vent post though. I am now working on base more money and the hours are good but its having a bad effect on Kenzi and of course me. I feel like I hardly ever see her and I am the type of mom who likes to know everything that my baby is doing. I know my mom loves her but I feel like my mom just doesn't have time for her anymore especially with being married now.


I use to feel comfortable with ladybug being with her dad while I'm at work now he is a jerk and I will be fighting for full custody for my daughter. Yeah I knew things would be this way. Every agreement we have he lies to me and breaks it. Last Friday was it for me. This custody battle,my job, everything has me stressed out and I don't know which way is up. I'm crying as I write this that's all I know how to do. No one really knows why I am so stressed I mean who wants to talk about trying to get custody of your daughter and how you feel like you don't spend enough yime. He also does not pay child support so this job is Godsent. I just don't know what t think anymore.

Ladybug is crawling!!

This deserved a post of its own. A way from the negative post! My babygirl is crawling. She is 8 months and crawling. Today we put her on the floor and she crawled right to me. It made me cry. I though tshe would not crawl until she was older but she did and made mama proud.

So ladybug is going to be a big sister!

Well that's what I heard. The little girl who me and her dad got into a hugge arguenent about is now two months pregnant with his child. I can't say I didn't see it coming because i did. I knew I would have to face the reality of mckenzie having a brother or sister. It hurts though. I'm not going to lie it hurts but I can't dwell on it. Kenzie dad is in the past. It hurts but hey its life.

Our Life Thus Far

Well McKenzie is finally here!!! She is 8 months old now and so beautiful. Ladybug was born August 3,2010 at 6:18 pm weighing 7lbs 3.6 oz and 21 inches long. I gave birth to my beautiful angel at 38 weeks and 3 days. I had to be induced because of blood pressure issues and ladybug was not eating. I was so scared! I wanted a natural birth no meds but things don't always go as planned. My epidural experience was bad. I will never have another one. Other than that labor etc was not as bad as I thought it would be but my sister calls me a pain freak lol. Ladybug dad was there and stayed tge night. He was really nice and sweet helped a lot but now.....


Well we tried working it out but he has hurt me too many times and I will never be with him again. I'm raising my beautiful baby girl alone. I am working abd we have moved into our own place. Its hard being a single mom,working,and making sure you and baby get your time together but its all worth it for her. One day she will be a independant woman too. I thank God for my babygirl but please tell her to sleep for mommy lol! Signing off.