Today has been think hard day I think lol. I have just been thinking about how everything has rolled out. I think about how my mom may have felt when my dad walked out on us. Now the same thing has happened to his daughter and he is not happy about it. I guess what goes around comes around huh?
I wish I did not have to mope around so much but I know things will get better. I want to just let all of my emotions out now. Different people keep saying that he will realize what he is missing out on but to be honest, I do not want him to realize it. Why because well after all the hurt he has caused me, I am so done and over him. There is nothing he can say or do to make me believe him or ever feel the way I use to about him. I tried so hard and ended up with nothing. I am sick of giving my all and ending up with a broken heart.
I read something on either facebook or yahoo that most black men will walk out on their family. I am not one to believe stuff like this but I am starting to now more and more. My dad walked out on us, my sister husband walked out them, and well here I am McKenzie's father has walked out on us. It is a never-ending cycle it seems. I thought I would be the one to end but no not me. Maybe my niece or McKenzie can end it, even my brothers.
Well I am about to do some more reading so until next time. Keep the strength and stay strong. God bless.
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